dear husband

husband-

here i sit. alone and pregnant. now.now. now. that sounds a lot worse than it is.  however it is simply fact. you are on a trip and i am home alone. home alone by choice. but i miss every ounce of you. seems you have that certain something that brightens my day no matter the mood. i miss that. just as i miss your presence. your breath beside me at night. the way you change your clothes at least 5 times before work. i did my best not to cry this morning.  i succeeded.  funny the way love is. i couldn't cry. not because i wasn't sad but because it would take away from your happiness. i know you are missing me. right now. at least a teeny bit. even if you are a million miles away. even if you aren't right by my side. i don't worry. from here until we are old and gray we have our lives to live together. and no one can convince me otherwise.

love your i miss you and it's only been twelve hours wife,

me

Dear Husband

husband,

i can call you husband now. i took your name. just as i longed to do. the days and nights i mulled over when this day would come seem so long ago. we have grown together, faced new challenges and fallen more in love than i thought possible. in the not too distant future we will have our "mini us." he/she will be brilliant like you, of this i am certain. i can not wait to meet what is sure to be the love of our lives. creating this with you seems like the perfect continuation of what we have built together. perhaps the most comforting part of all is knowing we will continue to create, grow and love together. from here until forever.

love your so in love with you it is ridiculous wife,
me

dear future past. present and me i long to be

one day you will look back on you, the you are right this moment with longing. you will appreciate the way you look as only a wiser you can. hopefully no big regrets will cross your mind, but lets be honest we know us and that simply could not be true. i will forever be too hard on myself. too critical. i may forever sing and dance even though i probably shouldn't. although i won't always do it when someone is watching. i will most likely be alone. i will forever have a fear of sharing my thoughts with the general public. i will forever say i love you to the boyfriend too many times a day. so many times in fact, i hope he doesn't tire of the words. i hope he doesn't tire of me. i hope to outgrow my insecurities. my inability to say the words when they are needed. my incessant need to write to fill the void in my mind. the thoughts i don't know are there until my fingers hit the keypad. i hope to grow old along side the man i currently sleep beside. i hope to have a garden full of kids. to be the mom who makes the best cookies. the house every kid wants to visit. please don't let us grow old and alone with too many cats. we like cats but not that much. don't let me get me. don't let me over criticize and destroy what's left of me. you have hurt yourself enough. just sit back and enjoy what's laid in front of you.right.at.this.moment. take the time,enjoy this ride. every little pain,every bridge crossed,every tear shed and smile given. breathe and take it all in.